Photo by Rick Sampson
I have this strong sense right now that I need to focus on me. I need to be all about me. That doesn’t necessarily mean that I can’t have you around or that I don’t want you around, but I can’t continue to focus solely on you. I have to start living for me.
I’m so exhausted and worn out with my life—I need to start doing things that make me happy, that bring life back into my life. And right now, you are dragging me down. I’m so concerned with your issues and your problems, that it’s consuming me and my disposition. I feel as though I have your same issues and that’s not the case. At least, I can’t let it be the case.
My emotions have no time to be carrying the burdens of two people. I have enough happening in my own life that I need to start paying attention to. We can’t keep having two people focused on you and no one focused on me. That’s not fair.
I need to get my life back to a level of fairness…I need balance. I need to be happy.
Being without you does not make me happy, so that’s not what I want. But I’m not sure how to get happiness in my life when I’m focused on you.
So I’m going to need to be selfish for a while as I focus on the things that I enjoy. I’m going to start saying “no” to people and start doing what I want to do to bring me joy.
I need to pull away from you a bit and start pulling in more of myself.