Monday, December 6, 2010

No Use in Hiding...

He holds the key to my heart...will he open it?
He’s seen the “real” me. He knows me. He knows when I’m upset. He knows when I want attention. He knows when I don’t feel loved. But we are broken up now.  So he is the villain, the enemy. So now the enemy knows my secrets—knows how to decode my message; unlock my combination.  

There is no hiding from him, but that is the person I want to hide from the most.  I don’t want him to know I still think about him. I don’t want him to know I still dream of him. I don’t want him to know I still care! So in an attempt to hide these feelings from him, I put even more of a shield up with him. Hell, it’s like a barricade. But the barricade is for him and me. I don’t want him knowing I still have feelings for him, but I also don’t want myself acknowledging I still have feelings for him. I am in denial—trying to fool everyone (myself included) that the curtains are closed on he and I. But the truth is…there may be a second act…

1 comment:

  1. Man, I can relate to this post, but I'm not in denial about my feelings, as a matter of fact I may have made my feelings known a little too much, too soon. Now I'm disappointed because in my vulnerable, emotional outburst(s), I put myself out there, and the response I was looking for did/ has not came. Such is life, I guess. (shrugs shoulders)