Art by Zoran Ozetsky
I don’t know what to do.
My boyfriend shouldn’t come before my dreams and my goals, but I guess I didn’t think I would ever have to choose. I always thought the direction my life was going in and the direction his life was going in would overlap…but that’s not necessarily the case.
I’m going to have to make a choice. And I don’t know what to do.
I want my life to have purpose. I want to follow the path that God has carved out for me, but I want that path to include my boyfriend. But maybe it doesn’t or maybe it shouldn’t.
Maybe it’s not about what I want, but about what He (God) wants. Maybe I’m over thinking it and it will work itself out. Maybe this is a test—a test to show that my purpose in life and what God wants for me comes before my boyfriend.
So although I’m currently sad, I know that the end goal is worth it. If my boyfriend and I are meant to be together, then that will happen. If we are supposed to be apart, then that’s what will need to happy.
I have to live my life for Christ, not for my boyfriend.
So that’s what it is. Let’s see where God leads me…