Beyond the Breaking Point

I'm ready to make a move!

If absence makes the heart grow fonder, then I must be obsessed with you by now, because absence is all we’ve ever known. All we’ve known is the feeling of longing and desire to be close to each other. All we’ve known is withdraw.

Well, I’m fond enough of you. I’ve reached my “fondness” limit. I don’t need to grow anymore fond of you. This is good enough. I’m ready to be present with you. I’m ready to build upon the fondness that absence created. I’m ready, he’s ready, nature’s ready—it’s as if everything is aligning to build and construct a love based upon the fondness. 

The only problem is knowing when the alignment period is over. When will all the stars align to form that perfect constellation in the sky? How will I know when I’m supposed to walk through the open doors in front of me? When will I know that all of my ducks have formed a row?

I don’t want to wait for the perfect situation to happen, but I also don’t want to rush things. If I wait on perfection, that will never come, but if I hurry the situation up, that could be bad as well.

The waiting game is agonizing when the person you are waiting on is already in your life. Which begs the question, what are we waiting on? If we are tired of being apart, why don’t we get closer? Get closer in every sense—physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally and financially. 

Absence may make the heart grow fonder but only to a certain point. Then it reaches its breaking point and causes the heart to suffer. We’ve put our hearts through too much suffering…