The Hurt I Felt When We Broke Up

I never meant to hurt you

That is what he said

I never meant to hurt you

But right to hurt was led

I was led down a path of insecurity and doubt

A path that trampled me until I too wanted out

I wanted us to make it to the end, you and I

I wanted us to both want to cross that finish line.

But I cannot drag you across that waving flag;

I cannot drag you and one day regret I had.

I wanted you to love us,

but you never truly did;

I wished for you to be in love with me,

but that wish was just too big.

So here I am 2 years later wondering what went wrong;

Here I am 2 years later in the midst of a sad love song. 

So while he’s “trying not to hurt me,”

he could’ve tried two years ago. 

He could’ve tried before I decided to let my defenses go.

You never meant to hurt me?  What you think you’d do?

Tell me that you wanted out and I would say, “Me too!”

No, that’s not the way it works

when you hide your true feelings. 

That’s not the way it works

when you don’t know with whom you’re dealing.

I was dating a figure, a cartoon who said what I wanted to hear.

A mix between Santa Clause and Papa Smurf who always brought good cheer!

But spare me the “Ho, ho, hos,” I’d rather hear the truth.

Spare me the “baby, I miss yous” cause I never saw the proof.

You lied to me, you’re a liar because of the stuff you didn’t say.

Because of your two years of lying, today I feel the pain.

So you never meant to hurt me? Ha. That joke’s funny…

Why don’t you go down the street and tell it to that girl, honey!

In the meanwhile, I’m gonna be OK…that’s a matter of fact.

And oh…when you realize that I was the one please don’t come back!